My Rock Is Starting to Crumble.

Ive been through alot as a child. Adoption, three different fathers, 50,000 dollars in court battles, and yad yad yad.
Kenneth my grandfather has always been there, but because of the adoption Im not his grandchild. Im not even a relative. To me it is just blood that matters, yet i cant see him when hes in the hospital or when the time comes for his death bed.

Papa has been diagnosed with Skin Cancer, and Alzheimers. His memory isnt sliping very fast or too vastly but its enough that its starting to scare me. Hes has had to have a skin graph sugery and series of it after that and is starting to heal but he doesnt look the same, and I dont like it.

Im worried he wont be around for my children and it scares me. I never know how his brain will chage over night and im scared he wont remember me one day and ill just be a lost memory. I dont think i can go through it, and I wont.

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Reblog if you live in Kentucky.

jaybirdz:

I want to follow everyone that I have potential of actually meeting.

(Source: kittty-cat-meow)

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Cross Of What You’ve Done :)

graduated high school.

smoked a cigarette.
gotten so drunk you passed out.
ridden every ride at an amusement park. 
collected something really stupid.
gone fishing

gone long periods of time without sleep.

lied to someone.
snorted cocaine.

Failed a class

dealt drugs.

been in a car accident.

Been in a tornado.
watched someone die.
been to a funeral.
burned yourself.
run a marathon. 
cried yourself to sleep.
spent over $200 in one day. 
flown on a plane.
written a 10 page letter. 
gone skiing.
been sailing. 
lost someone you love.
had a best friend.
shoplifted something.
been to jail.
dangerously close to being in jail.
had detention.
skipped school. 
got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
stolen books from the library. 
gone to a different country.
dropped out of school.
been in a mental hospital.
watched the “harry potter” movies.
had an online diary.
fired a gun. 
gambled in a casino.
had a yard sale.
had a lemonade stand
actually made money at the lemonade stand
been in a school play.

gone to sea world.
voted for someone on a reality tv show.
written poetry.
read more than 20 books a year
gone to europe. 
used a coloring book over age 12.
had surgery.
had stitches 
taken a taxi.
seen the washington monument.
had more than 5 im’s/online conversations going at once.
overdosed.
has a drug or alcohol problem. 
been in a fist fight.
suffered any form of abuse
had a hamster.
pet a wild animal.
used a credit card.
gone surfing in california. 
done “spirit day” at school.
dyed your hair. 
gotten a tattoo.
had something pierced. 

gotten straight a’s.

been on the academical honor roll.
known someone with hiv or aids.
taken pictures with a webcam.
started a fire 

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Kentucky

You suck

There is NOTHING HERE FOR ME!

I HATE you.

If i wasn’t for you Id live in Indiana and be closer to Nickolis.

Your just a dick.

Fuck you mother fucker.

Day Six- My day

My day has been simple.

I went to the hookah bar with Zoe the went shoping at dot fox then went to ear-x-tacy. I took her home Went to work and then did homework before spenting time with Nickolis.

Day Five- My Definition Of Love

In my word love is the feel that you get when you are spending time with that person that makes you the happiest you thought  you would never achieve, or in other words Nick.

 

Day Four- What i ate today

Breakfast- Diet Root Beer with My speical vitamin powder

Lunch- Is for squares

Dinner- Mash potatoes

Night drink- Vodka, tequila, cherry koolaid and sunkiss (Tequila Sunrise)

Day Three- Your Parents

This one is a bit confusing because i have a bilogical father, an adopted father, and then my step father whom i accept as my dad. Im sure thats all confusing but long story short, my mom got pregnant with me then my biological father gave up rights. Then my mother married a guy that adopted me. Then the divorced and see met Timothy Hall, Tim is technoicly my step father but i consider him my father. So yes ive burned through two fathers but im not working to burn through my third.

My mom Kathryn is a women of many skills and talents, she would easily debate with someone that has a degree in debates and easily win. Shes well established and know what she wants out of life and what she wants out of her children.

Timothy my dad is a workohlic, he works and has gone to school for… 22 years, so he has a PHD. He currently works with a chemical company and helps with the math.

 

My mom and Dad on their wedding day September 25th, 2010.

Day two- first Love

“First Love”

Eric, i met him through our friends he attended a catholic school in Elizabeth town and at one time i though i was possibly in love, hints the quotations. We dated on and off for about 5 months and then i figured the only you wanted was sexual things. I wasnt up for that my junior year. So i dumped your ass and met others adn dated around and realized you was a piece of shit. I remember many of the things youve done and it will not be repeated :) So thank you, you piece of shit for making me intolerable to dicks and for adding that little piece of sexiest to my personality. :)) Seriously, thank you.

First Love

Nickolis, i met you from wrestling when i went to check brackets and we just switched numbers. I have to admit i never thought we would be where we are today, but happy that we are. Due to our 5 hours of distance i dont get to see you all that much but i do trust you more than i though i would ever allow myself. So yep, we did something right.